HOLD ON DREAMS...DREAM BEAM 15

     

Sometimes dreams have to hold

on...for mommyiness.


Since my husband was working on Valentine's Day, don't be sad, with his job as a commercial fisherman we have learned to celebrate every day we are together so at 6:30 Valentine's Day morning we had yummy chocolate and a little blingy gift exchange, our daughter just loved the early morning celebration.

Last night, I thought after I put our daughter to bed I would get a head start on today's blog and other misc. to-do's so that I could really concentrate on my to-dreaming all day. Well, that didn't happen.

Our daughter, Nyla was up over and over and over again.

 Before I get into what happened next,

I would like to thank Michael at http://lifetoheryears.com for providing not only a blog that I love but also the gift and opportunity to post a little mommyspinkielipgloss ad on his blog.

I love www.lifetoheryears.com even more after last night because on one of those ups, we perused most of his archives. September 06, and July 19, 2011 are Nyla's favorites.

Finally, after hearing a song on post November 1st, I decided well even if she’s playing me I just love her so much, I stayed with her for a little while and got up. That worked for about 15 minutes.

She slowly climbed on the couch and said she was scared, when I asked her of what she looked at me with big saucer eyes and crocodile tears just poured out, this time I really knew she wasn't playing me. We hugged for a long, long time, I felt her quiver in her little soft pajamas. Finally she let out a big quiver and stumbly said, I'm scared of that big hairy thing on a TV commercial, when I finally figured out what she was talking about I realized it was Bigfoot! Awww! I think that was weeks ago, the TV ads were on for that show. 

She remembered back in pre-k when she couldn’t get scary things out of her mind.  I remember too, that’s when for about a month she had me ask every person I knew and stranger I ran into wherever we were at what they did to get scary things out of their mind. Thanks everyone by the way, we tried them all!
 
What finally worked then was drawing a picture of it, then ripping it up into tiny pieces then throwing it away in the outside garbage can as well as buying a gargoyle and put it outside our front door to keep scary spirits away. We still have the gargoyle (thanks to my Reiki instructors for this idea) I used to think people who had gargoyles were into weird and creepy things, now I know there just trying to get their kids to sleep and keep the weird, creepy, scary things away! :) 

I added a scarf for the photoshoot :)

Drawing is Nyla’s thing, so again she drew pictures of the scary things that were keeping her up tonight.  Not only Bigfoot, but a Vampire, a girl Devil and a Witch but not a Giant because those are just big not scary but nice.



What happened next was really quite special because I got out of my “It’s my alone, adult time mode and really listened and forgot that it was now 10pm!  We talked about why they are scary, each one separately and what made them that way.  And what Nyla came up with was someone was mean to them and then that made them mad and sad and then they were mean to everyone.



Here’s how her scenarios went:



She then drew the person that was mean to Bigfoot.  After Bigfoot and the girl talked, they realized they were different from each other and that made them scary to each other.  After they realized they weren’t scary; then they went to an amusement park and rode the merry-go-round. While they were at the amusement park someone else made fun of Bigfoot and his friend stuck up for him.  Bigfoot started to get mad and angry again, but his new friend reminded him not to and to have fun.



I’ll skip the Vampire and girl Devil scenario but the Witch one was a little different.



The Witch didn’t have any friends except the black cat.  So she didn’t have anyone to go talk to.  Nyla decided the Witch really liked to sing, so she decided to be in the play Alice in Wonderland.  And she got lots of fans because she was so good.  The fans made her happy and became her friends. So now since the Witch was happy she wasn’t mean and scary anymore.



The end!



I would like to thank again, www.lifetoheryears.com, all the people who help us keep scary things away, gargoyles and my amazing Nyla.



I hope one day my blog can help, inspire and make someone happy that is my new dream.  xxxxoooo Michelle

DREAMS CHANGE...THATS COOL! DREAM BEAM 6

   

A few years ago, my husband, daughter and I decided to move to Costa Rica. We have a house there and kind of know the ropes, it was before Nyla was in school and we thought this was the perfect time. This was our dream that we had worked on for many, many years. We sold, gave away, threw away and put into storage the miscellaneous pictures, income tax stuff and a few things we couldn't part with. We paid off as many bills as we could, figured out on-line banking, and forwarded our mail to Moms house. We decided we would go for a year and come back to figure out what to do with the storage stuff.

13 bags including surfboards and a dog, Pop Pop rented a van and drove us to the airport. It was a torrential downpour. Somehow, in this monsoon rain, our flight took off and there we were flying to our long awaited dream. We were excited and nervous at the same time. 5 months later, we realized we were blowing through our money, we hadn't figured it out, we're having the time of our lives, even our dog, Martine was having the time of his life, rounding up cows and not being on a leash for the first time, our extremely shy Nyla was even going to pre-school here and there.

 Then one day, we get the call, we have to come home to take care of some family stuff. We were mad, a little relieved, frustrated, deflated, embarrassed that we didn't become the ex-patriots that we wanted and scared of the future.

It took a little time to realize why we were brought back, we were unemployed, and not sure which way to go- all our years were spent on achieving our dream - to live in Costa Rica. Within a few months of our return, we found out that a scary mole on my husband’s back well, was scary, he had melanoma cancer. He's totally ok now but if it wasn't for that acquaintance, Shawna talking about her moles, he would have never had it checked out. (Big huge, I love you so much for that, thanks Shawna). So as a side note, everyone get your freaky moles checked out those who don't- don't make it to live their dreams! Also, that's when I got into REIKI which I love so much and helped us during this time of melanoma cancer scare. We moved back to an area that we love and we got reacquainted with one of my husband's high school friends and they have kids which happen to still be one of Nyla's BFF's and we have met some amazing people.

We are still pursuing our Costa Rica dream, its just changing as we change and grow (we wear way stronger sun screen and rash guards). We know its going to be there for us, its just going to be better!

So, we never know where our dreams are going to take us, its way easier if we don't think about it, don't fight the direction it leads us to, realize we have to enjoy life along the way as we pursue our thousands of dreams!

The above picture was made by Nyla, its a dream rainbow.  She made it with us in mind and she used her favorite Cra-Z-Art crayons. (she just loves them, she loves the colors, the way the paper feels (the wrapper) and that they don't smell pukey, who knew there was that much to a crayon, she does! She's the artist, the professional :)  Super hugs and thank you Nyla, my love bug for making this awesome dream rainbow!

Have an excellent day, I mean it have an EXCELLENT DAY!  xxxxxooooo Michelle